This is a bit of a piggyback on my latest post for Houston Moms Blog, "The Confessions of a {Wannabe} Bossmama. Read it. Think about it. And realize that it's ok to take it all in stride. This morning, I woke up with a giggle. Ear infection and all, I managed to giggle. Because I woke up with zero fucks. Because, I remembered that, no matter how much I plan, how deliberate I am with my choices, life is going to do what it does. Sometimes, it's ok to go with the current instead of ALWAYS trying to swim upstream. 2020 will always, not-so-fondly be "The Unplannable Year" for me. Everything I'd expected for the year went right out the window. No one expected a pandemic. No one expected this chaos. No one expected schools shutting down, some starting back up, some not, some local business shutting its doors for good. And all the Etc, Etc, Etc, that has come with this year. It has all caused my anxiety to blast through the roof {thank goodness for CBD oil... it has been a saving-grace}, but I'm starting to realize, no matter how fervently I try to control all the things, it just might not work out... and I'll be ok. I can reroute, reevaluate, reassess, reprogram, redo. I can think ahead. I can solidify future goals. I can set myself and my family up to make moves down the line. Silver lining:: I get to plan some more! Double whammy planning! {I'm trying, everything has an upside, right?} The God I know has quite the sense of humor, and often knows what I need and when I'm ready for it. If need be, God gives me a 2020 as a solid hip check, a reminder that my plans might not be my current destiny. My attention may just be needed elsewhere. *shrugs* I see you, God.
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